It's Thursday, January 10,2013.

Too many to think, to many to hold, I still don't have anyone I could turn, to talk what exactly my mind is telling me to do further.

Why? because all I can do is keep to myself & not to expect anybody to understand. My father once said "You can't get everything in this world dear, But we can do everything we have to get what we desire"

We already reach the middle of January 2013, but I'm still in my cold ice mode. Believe it or not. I have NO "New Year Resolution" at all.It sound unmotivated, but trust me, I don't feel that so much.

But this year should be D' Year, should be the turning point for my Lat Tali Lat Wardrobe, should be the beginning of my journey to move forward to a new position, new house, new car. Wow..why should it be all new?

Was my previous years are meaningless, so that I need so much new things this year? Nahhh...I guess not..
Whatever it may be (Que Sera, Sera)..I have a strong will that I'll work smarter & efficiently this year.
And what MOST important that, I will be a better MUSLIM for Allah SWT, for my Rasulullah SAW & so my family.

This candy buffet image, make me feel vibrant & refresh...Let's work it out friend...We'll strive for excellence

Chinese New Year is coming back. Yeayyyy...
Wait a minute... It's that a YEAY from me??/

Hahah..well that was overreact alright..
Biologically we will celebrating it... But this year it would be different..
Our beloved late Aunt Angie funeral anniversary of 100 days will be on that particular day.
Furthermore Chinese people don't celebrate CNY as merrier as usual when there's a death in the family in the previous year or recently before the CNY.

Actually that's not matter me the most...
I'm on A HOLIDAY mode & I'm so excited.

SERIOUSLY.... it's not really a HOLIDAY my friend..
It's more to medical leave for me, as I'll be undergo some minor dental surgery for my wisdom tooth on
25th January 2012.

Wish me luck yaaa..
Nothing much to say really...
But I'm so excited to be back HOME again this Friday..

Johor Bahru..Hope I get to see you soon...

JBbbbbb here I come....:P...XOXO

Back then when I was in secondary school, yes it was about 14- 15 years back. I was a carefree teenager, school routine, gossips , exams, co curricular activities never stop me from doing what I want, having things on my way, see things at my own view, imagine life with my own perspective without prejudice & anxious.

And again, that was 14-15 years ago. Now I'm moving on my end of twenties, Alhamdulillah, I've enjoy every each part & parcel of it.. The good and the bad, the bitter sweet memories in it.. I've endure it, adhere it, having fun with it and create my own dreams & self belief in it.

It was beautiful yet exhausting at the same time. Less than 103 days in the future, I'll be 28..I feel like 18 again...hahah..Is that a wish?? Ohh of coz it's not..I'm very careful with what I'm wishing for..(learn it from the best)..

How is it feel being in this age? I feel my freedom has been taken away, little by little..day by day..hour by hour & even now sometimes I get scare every minute of it, scarier when every each second of it would be too psychotic to admit.. 

Suddenly I've realize that I'm slowly absorbing into new shell, & no more "PLAYING around thing" that suitable for my position right now..

So,Let my prayer will be answer by Allah SubahanahuwaTa'ala..
Let my hope & dreams will leads me to be a better Muslimah.
Let my life will be shower with wonderful things to come,
Let myself be STRONGER as Saidatina Khadijah RadiAllahuanhu...
& Let my soul always be by my GREATEST CREATOR side...
InsyaAllah... Aaamin Ya Robbila A'lamin..

There is a tweet from a Twitter I've read just now. It's simple but meaningful.

"A Best Friend"

That is what I love to highlight here..

Back when I was in Marketing school, I had to agree with my marketing lecturer & things I've learn in marketing syllabus about "PEER ACCEPTANCE".  The term that briefly explain that an influence or a factor of having an impulse of BUYING /SUBSCRIBE product or service.

Since I was a kid, in primary school, I hate to admit but accept the fact that I was keep on trying to fit in into group of friends, so that I 'll be accepted by them. Ya...people, well I will feel weird if there is no one I can be close to in school.. Yaaa..that's how I felt that time..Typical girl with typical attitude I would say.

And guess what friend,
I never really had a group  or what ever we love to call "GENG" in malay or if I should translate it in English it would be "GANG"...

Why??

Because I was seriously...Yaaaaaa again..SERIOUSLY not a popular girl or favorite girl in primary school. & again, that was it..No detail stories is needed for this primary school memories.

There we go back again in Secondary school, when I was studying in I.J Convent JB...Haaa..sometimes I really doubt whether Am I really a CONVENT girl???...Hell!!!...Fyruzs..It's too late to be DREAMING or whatever...Ya..You were A CONVENT Girl..

Still, I dont have any particular group that I turn to, whenever I'm in school..To be honest, Some of them have a serious issue (stupid issues) actually with me...Sometimes I think I was too naive & ignorant that I even caught into this TEENAGERS issue (fought over celebrities updates, being a victim of GOSSIP a.ka (FITNAH), jealousy & whatever)...But that was in Secondary school..I'm seriously think my Convent days was SUCKS.............(Sorry friend, It's not CONVENT, it's the people I've met there).

Then in my Business School (an A LEVEL), Ohh this is great...I've really make friends like I never had before..This is the place, where I start to have numerous of companion within school  atmosphere ..Hmmm may be it's because I've gone through a lot back there in CONVENT with full of corrupted friendship scheme..or WHAT so ever...

An A LEVEL school was one of my greatest school time. I had new friends, new school, new atmosphere, new spirit, fresh ambition & everything is feel like a BRAND NEW BABY BORN thing.. 

Until now, after my graduate from Marketing School from MMU & my current working arena. Me..Yes..I, Siti Fairuz Binti Mustafa, had never really has the PURE, TRULY Best Mortal Friend..

Seriously...ya..SERIOUSLY...

Because my only best friends is ALLAH SubahanahuwaTa'ala..

Since I was born, till now..He's the ONE and only that could and always listen to me, be with me & taking care of me, no matter where, when, what, how did I've been.

Even when I'm alone, feeling scared, wary or even unease,the only thing I can return & express my true feeling is HIM...No ONE but HIM..I guess, I could never had a real mortal BEST Friend..

Coz I'll always have my ONE & ONLY wherever I AM.

I Hope He will never ignore me, no matter what I did or do, as I can never live without HIM,never here, there or anywhere else.

I guess, this is all I can tell my other friend, about my only best friend in my entire life..

Yes I am fortunately trapped in the “Parfum” thing  today. Walking by to a Warehouse Sale is totally prohibited for me especially it’s nearby pay day. That’s a new thing I know about myself.

Menara TM Lower Ground Perfume Warehouse Sales has never been my thing before, as I’m not Perfume kind of person. But today is the day of my first & foremost REAL perfume  I’ve bought & have with me.

And again, It’s HEAT RUSH by Beyonce. It’s simply sweet & soft . I’ve got it for only RM140 of 3.4 oz / 100 ml. Don’t know whether is a good promotion price or not. But according to Aziella (my office clique).It’s consider very cheap for such branded & volume.

Till now, I’ve still feel like I was unconsciously owned this perfume. Is it Beyonce? Is it the price? Is it the fragrant itself? Or is it my personal impulse of getting something for myself? I  JUST DON’t KNOW guys..

But basically I love the feel of having it, smelling it & walk with it.

It’s again & again, HEAT RUSH by BEYONCE.

I guess she can be proud of her personal sensual fragrant combination creation.

HEAT RUSH is a combination of:

Top Notes

Passion Fruit, Blood Orange and Brazilian Cherry.

Heart Notes

Yellow Tiger Orchid, Mango Blossom and Orange Hibiscus.

Base Notes

Teak Wood, Honey Amber and a Musk accord that is inspired by the sunsets in Brazil.

It’s the end of November 2011. Yes it is..I’ll be cleaning up all unused stuff to be segregate and send to charity organization, interested party, waste management centre & etc.

Here’s the plan:

1. Collect boxes
2. Separate into different type & purpose
3. Pack all unused but good condition stuffs
4. Throw recycle item (glass/papers/aluminium) to the recycle purpose dustbin
5. Unused but good condition clothes will be post to orphanage
6. Offer unused stuffs to sister/friend & etc
7. Throw away whatever consider as rubbish

*Anyone interested to join me to send your unused and usable to charity organization can PM (private message me)

* I will be posting unused stuff that might be usable to you, you can PM me if you interested to take it for FREE (self pick up alright)..

It’s NOVEMBER guys…Time to CLEAN THINGS UP…

Love & Cheer,

Fyruzs Mustafa

Last Thursday is a special day for our siblings to celebrate our dearest Umi's Birthday..

Nothing more precious rather than our Umi's smile on that day..It's just we missed our two significant members due to unavoidable circumstances..Our Ayah & Our middle princess "Sarah"..

If the picture paint a thousand words than why can't I find you?...

Here are some of the moment that I've capture during the small gathering of ours..

It's very modest yet very meaningful to us & family..

No birthday cakes BUT so much of LOVE from all of us to our Wonderful Umi..

Saengil Chukayo Omma...

Seoul Garden For Our Dearest Soul Celebration

What we were having 

All of us (I'm the photographer)

The moment of truth, She's damn happy (So grateful to Allah SWT for making her happy with our small modest presentation)

"YOU DON'T KNOW A THING ABOUT ME"

Dedicated to all "MR KNOW IT ALL"

This chocolate chip cookies came with a very well known story and taste behind it.

Ya...It's $250 chocolate chip cookies..(yes dear, you can always use your search engine for further info..)

I've just made it last weekend when I was at home (my parent's home)..

Coz there is the place where I can stretch all my leg & hand ...(FREELY BAKE)

Free to use all the utensils, bakery equipments & a spacious kitchen. (@_@)

Here is the recipe, in case somebody wanted to try it (and again, you can use your search engine for more details) :

Ingredients:

Ingredient A

2 cups of butter

2 cups of granulated sugar

2 cups of brown sugar

2 teaspoons of vanilla essence

1 teaspoon of salt

4 large size of eggs

Ingredient B

4 cups of flour

2 teaspoons baking powder

2 teaspoons soda bicarbonate
5 cups of oatmeal (finely blend into powder)
3 cups of chopped mix nuts (I use hazelnut+cashew nut+almond)


Ingredient C
680 gram chocolate chips
510 gram grated (shredded) cooking chocolate bar


I think Hershey's is the best choice of chocolate for this recipe.


Preparation:
Mix butter and sugar all together in the mixer until it become reasonably creamy , slowly put in one egg at the time and keep on mix it until all the mixture are blend. Add vanilla essence & salt and continue to mix it.Make sure the salt and vanilla essence are finely blend with the butter and sugar.


Next, add in all ingredient C , and spin the mixer until the dough is finely blend, continue by adding ingredient B, slowly (1 scoop full at the time) and mix it using spatula & your beautiful hand until the dough is perfectly well blended.


Shape it, like a ball shape of 2 inches, and put it on the tray. 
Bake with a 180 degree heat in 10 minutes time.


Notes: The oven heat is adjustable with the size of the dough and type of oven we are using. (Please do try and error with your own oven).


Using a high quality butter & both chocolate (bar & chips) are very important  for best result.


Here are some pictures of my $250 chocolate chip cookies :

 Isn't it lovely? Heheh... Believe me it is..

In the Oven still...

Cookies ordering is open for Eid Adha Al Mubarak !!!


It's very chocolaty, sweet & crunchy


- 50-55 pieces per container.
- Around 1.5 - 2 inches each piece.
-Limited,seasonal & upon request order only 
   (Coz I'm doing this on part time basis)
- RM 30 per container
- For Aidiladha order (November 2011) ONLY available for self collected
- Open for order (Until 20 Oct 2011)






Any inquiry please contact me: 
Fyruzs - 019-3577686 begin_of_the_skype_highlighting            019-3577686      end_of_the_skype_highlighting